it has been 2 month since ii last blog.. lotsa things happen during tis 2 month period.. Jie get married on 07.08.09. but ii think she wasn't happy at all.. she was carrying baby yet she still have to help his husband out about the pet shop. n she came back home few days ago to stay a nite. she mus be having a hush time over there ba.. ii feel soo bad for her ii even heart ache..
Wao~ nxt thursday gonna b my Tp test le.. dame panic de la.. ii will b having my tp in the noon n lyndy having hers in the morning.. Hope w both can go through our test smoothly.. soo far iim still don really think ii can on my road part. but think it's gonna b ok by the test..? huhu~
today is eddy 1year after he pass away.. ii miss him badly~ii don noe how long ii can hang on strongly.. kor~ ii have been meeting lotsa trouble lately.. things goin around really hurt mii.. lots of thing ii been thinking "y not ii jus give up since iim soo tired n helpless" but every time after said tis ii can't gif up cos ii don wanna break every of my close wan heart like the way u did.. ii noe the feeling, ii can feel it.. its the mos painful way den killin them.. walk like a soulless, eating a bowl of plain rice addin the salty tears.. more n more.. but iim really really don noe how ii can walk through tis period..ii need help..
OKie now as wat ii always did.. song of the post~ tis time it's a korean song by
kang daesung. the song named
TRY SMILING. i will have the eng lyric. enjoy ya~
i try smile again today..
so you will smile
because that guy constantly makes you cry
whatever it takes I want to make you smile again
Im in love by myself
for me its so hard to i can't bare it
but because you crying is worse for me than die
I smile again for you today
[chorus]I love you since I love you
because Im happy as long as your here
though my heart aches I try smiling again
like someone who makes people smile
like someone who has no pain
today i try and crying silently behind you again
my hearts going numb(from pain)
Even for a sad expression from you
I really hate that guy
he has all of your love
yet he still makes you cry, what more does he need
[chorus]I love you since I love you
because Im happy as long as your here
though my heart aches I try smiling/laughing again
like someone who makes people smile
like someone who has no pain
today I try crying silently behind you again
[bridge]the endless tears keep filling up and I stubbornly try to push them back again
though it's tough enough to kill me
though this pain is driving me crazy
I smile(because I love you more because I care for you more then myself)
even if my eyes begin to cry I bear through it
even if you can't hear any of my feeling
even if I can't seek out my love
today, in front of you, i try smiling again
19 July 2009 windy day
Just back from work.. feelin soo tired.. too tired.. n make mii have a flash back on my way walkin back.. remind mii of those hu passed away.. missing sunny kor kor.. wondering wat he is doin rite now inside the jail.. really miss him.. it's aready 1month n 9 days after he went in.. n missing eddy kor.. remind mii of those days wen every thing seem good..ii really do miss him.. thing wasn't tat smooth to mii now adays.. ii think tat ii started to avoid crowded place.. ii feel fear.. ii feel tat ii don really belong down here..
once upon a time，
an angel in the sky，
made comfort every night，
once upon a time，
the angel loved me so，
its a miracle in the snow,
my heart wont be cold
my dear,
you are my angel，
tell me what you know，
something should be told
my dear,
you are my angel ，
tell me where you go，
I will brace behind your throne.
once upon a time，
my angel gave me life.
Wao~ ii start to drive on the road le.. is instructor yeo guide mii on the road.. the v friendly n give mii a clear instruction wat to do nxt, wher ii got wrong..
