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think bei now at zouk clubbing ba.. ha.. used to it.. todae a super super super suay dae for mii.. really dame suay la.. suay to the core man..! last nite didn't manage to have a good slp cos have been cough through out the nite.. den in the morning go work onli late for 15mins kena scold by mum.. while workin, kena scold by 2 costumer.. nvm.. wake smoke burn my hand.. wen cuttin vege, cut my hand.. still nvm.. by rite my aunty should reach by 4 to take over my shift.. but hsiao tien have a small incident den my aunty late.. Still still nvm.. wen ii way to CDM todae.. ii miss the 5pm train.. ii was like started gettin piss of.. wen reach harbour front interchange ii miss the sentosa bus.. but no choice have to wait for the 6pm bus.. den wen ii almos done ii have make a super big mistake which ii don normally make.. sum more still make yati angry.. ii was like... WTF.. wat happen to mii todae.. ii jus soo dame unlucky.. everythings go wrong.. n ii couldn't tahan anymore ii.. my tears start to roll don.. den yati was soo afraid n keep tell mii sorry.. ger,, it's not ur wrong.. ii jus don noe wat happen to mii todae..don blame urself.. it's nth about u ii cry of.. don afraid.. is jus tat u noe wen things all get wrong in a dae n soo many different times.. ii jus cannot tahan.. ii really got depress..
Haha.. ard 1 mth nv blog le.. think darren oso don bother to come check my update le.. during tis period.. long of things happen n make mii think alot.. no matter in relation, family, friends & etc etc..Career:
ii get use to Cafe del mar life le.. every1 ther treat mii v nice.. we jus like a big family.. but too bad.. mii & ping still no chance to get to work same shift.. Yesterday jus we to a party make of mos life brand cashier.. Even brandi oso there too.. n soon ii'm leaving mum stall.. onli sometimes come back work wen ther need ppl..Friends:
ii think ii gonna get left out as ii have been vvv busy wit everythings.. no time go 1 head. no time pei them club. no time go outin wit them. no time go raining & etc.. have to work & look after ger ger.. sian~Family:
Haiz.. the most saddest part.. every1 jus simply can't get to noe wat ii wan & keep puttin blame on mii.. ii jus don noe wat they wan..
Relation:
as time go on.. ii start to feel the fear.. fear of the 3months promise.. ii think u jus couldn't forget her.. dear.. do u noe tat we r gettin further & further..? ii can't read wat u thinkin.. ii don noe wat u wan.. we no longer like last time tat close.. y..? wat happen to us..? do u still remember our promise..? do u still remember wat u promise..?Mii: for tis few month.. ii think ii'm out of controll.. no matter in handling my emotion, my health & money.. ii have been cryin almos every daes & nite.. ii jus couldn't get in to a good slp.. things jus keep rollin around in my mind.. iim gettin too depress.. even my health is gettin from bad to worst.. but still ii mus act like as if ii'm v strong n happy..ii don noe how long ii can carry on to gif the strong n happy image.. iim gettin weak.. ii really gonna fall some daes..
tis few dae ii have think of lots of things.. u still remember tat ii write 他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落 in my msn personal msg..? actually u still cant 4get her.. believe mii.. don said ii don trust u again.. but it's true.. mayb u ur self oso noe tis.. u said the pic is nt big deal.. but to mii it is.. n many many things ii really care of.. but u jus like don care of.. u noe ii really gettin tired.. the way u make mii feel tat ii jus a replacement of her.. the way u neglecting mii.. ya.. ii told u b4 ii need freedom in r/s but the freedom u gif is too much.. some times ii wonder.. hu m ii to u..? m ii important to u..? u jus cant 4get her no matter how much ii put in.. haha.. w/o ur noeing ii aready shed lots tears for 4 u.. silly rite..? haha.. ii think iim silly too.. cos ii noe it's u weakness 4 u to c a ger cry.. y ii jus soo naive to believe tat one dae u jus onli think of mii..? soo crowd to tell u wat ii actually thinkin.. ii need care by u.. ii need concern by.. ii need luv by u.. ii need u to dote mii.. but u jus make mii feel soo lonely.. no much differen as a single ger.. as u can c, iim gettin more n moe busy cos it's the onli to make mii not to think soo much.. but ii jus cant stop thinkin.. ii jus can hide..
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